Beginning....?
There is a fine line between fantasy and reality.
Sometimes, in the middle of a dark night, that line gets crossed.
The fantasy was that I thought I was submissive... Turns out I am a woman who loves kinky sex and men who can make decisions... There is a big difference.
I guess I am not as submissive as I thought I was. And I am no longer in the dark.
I am, however, heading out on a new path of discovery, thanks to a wonderful and wise man.
Last night, in the lightning and thunder of a big Kansas thunderstorm, I had the most awesome night I have ever spent with a man.
He left this morning, because he thought I was upset with Him... I let Him go because I thought He was disappointed in me...
There will be other times, I am sure of it... Don't count me out yet...
And Sir? I do love you...
(edited to clarify)
Sometimes, in the middle of a dark night, that line gets crossed.
The fantasy was that I thought I was submissive... Turns out I am a woman who loves kinky sex and men who can make decisions... There is a big difference.
I guess I am not as submissive as I thought I was. And I am no longer in the dark.
I am, however, heading out on a new path of discovery, thanks to a wonderful and wise man.
Last night, in the lightning and thunder of a big Kansas thunderstorm, I had the most awesome night I have ever spent with a man.
He left this morning, because he thought I was upset with Him... I let Him go because I thought He was disappointed in me...
There will be other times, I am sure of it... Don't count me out yet...
And Sir? I do love you...
3 Comments:
Knowledge and self-awareness are good things, kiddo.
I'm betting if you explain things to him as well as you have written them, and if he is the man you think he is there will be understanding.
I'm sure of it, Buffalo.
Submission is a state of mind darlin' and what you find you need today will be different in the light of the next day. Time changes things babygirl, time and emotion lead to the evolution of things never imagined before.
Hugs babygirl it will be alright.
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